Saturday, January 29, 2011

so much to do and no urge to do it...

These last few days I have felt so overwhelmed with all the things I need to do, some pretty important things, and I just have had no urge to get anything done!! I know I'm not alone here, procrastination happens to the best of us, but I am just wondering what I can do to light a fire under my own behind!? lol It's 2 o'clock and I am still in PJ's, just goofing around on the internet, printing address labels and ordering more wedding pictures for a scrapbook, one set for me and one for my grandma, and I already have a zillion pictures to start with but instead I'm just sitting here wasting time doing things that I don't need to be worried about. I should be dressed, picking up the house, mailing out my save-the-dates (which at this rate will be sent out at the same time as my wedding invitations!!), getting ready for dinner with my in-laws, and doing some laundry....but no. I don't want to do any of that! I want to relax and just do the things that are of no importance right now. Why is that? It's so frustrating! My grandma is here for the weekend and we have been addressing my save-the-dates and working on my guest list for the wedding (which I'm already over my limit!! ugh.) And every time we start working on it I instantly get frustrated because we've invited so many people and there are still some people that I would've liked to invite but I can't do anything about it and I don't want anyone's feelings to get hurt. But I guess it's going to happen no matter what, no sense in getting stressed over something that I just can't do anything about.

My invitations came in and they are going to look soooo awesome!! I'm going to plan a day with my girls to help me put them together and get them addressed. It'll probably be quite a bit of work but I think with a couple sets of hands it will be much easier (especially on me!). I have had this "oh i'll do it myself" attitude and I have brought a lot of stress on myself that could've been avoided if I just asked for help. But I have this problem with asking for help, I don't like to do it, I like to do things on my own to ensure that it will get done and be done the way I like it to be done. Which makes me sound like a brat now that I just said it out loud. But that's just how I feel. I want what I want, I want my wedding to be perfect. I only get this one chance to have a beautiful wedding. And that's how I want people to remember that day, perfect and full of love. Then I will have gone through all this stress for a reason!! lol

So basically I can't even stay focused on this blog right now, everything that I wanted to talk about is gone from my I'm going to make myself get up and get ready before Jimmy gets home and realizes I haven't done anything since he left!! lol

I'll be back soon. Hopefully with more to talk about. Sorry guys.

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